#25

Photo Day

This was a very nice day. I began with spending time with Deon. I left him and Shia and I went to Roscoe's Chicken and Waffles. The food was so good. The Chicken was like homemade chicken and not battered like other restaurants. It was very very good. We rode through Hollywood and she took pictures and we went to a gift store. It was very fun. Then, we went to the studios where Heather was taking her senior pictures. It was very nice. I didn't make it there to see her actually in the shoot but, I did get to be involved in the choosing. It was fun. I enjoyed every moment. Shia, Heather and I went from there to the Fox Hills Mall and she took pictures there in her cap and gown. It was fun. We had a ball. I went to my dad's and we got in trouble because he had paid so much money for the first set of pics and we went to the Mall studios and took some cheap not so good quality pics for fun. We laughed and everything worked out fine. I went to be with Deon and then over Debbies! I enjoyed myself.

#23

Well, I'm all packed for Los Angeles. I have butterflies in my stomach because I'm that much closer to see my Man! I can't wait until he hold me in his arms. I can't wait. Thank God. Also, On top of that I get to be with my Mom and Dad. I can't wait. It will be well worth the wait. I love them so much.

ShaRon is going to take me to the airport. She has a new job. I'm So happy for her.

I guess I'm almost ready for this trip.I paid my bill and I paid for the retreat in October in Atlanta. I can't wait to go to that. I can't wait. I know I'm going to enjoy myself.

I go my hair done. it's done but, I look like a Charlies Angel's Farah Fawset. I think that Roz don't like to do my hair, I say that because my hair is fluffy and not going to last.

Teefah's coming over for lunch were going to Olive Garden.

#22

Today was a wonderful day. I've woke up and I'm going to have a wonderful day. I need to pack, go to the bank, and pack! I miss my family and I will be there in 24 hours... I can't wait. I will see Deon. I love Deon. He's going to be at work when I get there but, I'm going to pick him up when he gets off. I Love Him!!!

I will be in LA for the last few days but, I will try to post on line if not. I will write things in my journal and then transfer it onto my blog.

Today I got a card from my instructor and it was so sweet. I will send her a card when I get back from Los Angeles. At first I was thinking that I did something and she was being funny or something... I guess I never think about the random acts of kindness that people really do. I felt great after getting that card. I'm going to scrap it. Also... I did this thing online about whose your inspiration on SJ and I made someones day and didn't know. They make my day all the time and I was really touched... she was so nice and invited me to be in the RAK! I was sooooooo Happpy!

Here was my entry:
I Believe that all of the people of SJ are my inspiration. I really enjoy looking at all of the LO's and really learn from each. I find myself looking at the photgraphy work of "Yoslick", The picture layouts of "Qkumba", The Challenges of "Geminigirl", "Nancyroo" Style, Sheridian is the first LO that I seen from this site and she's been a favorite ever since and Amy Chomas style and usage of Fonts! Just to name a few. But, for the most part I like everyone and I draw my inspiration from many.
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Nancyroo replied;
NewCat- THANK YOU!! I was having a crappy day and you really made my day. I cannot believe that someone finds me inspirational! Big Hugs!
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Nancy
She sees the good in people.

I was so pleased and touched by her response I PM'ed her. She was so so nice! Thank God for good people.

#21

Talked to Deon this morning. I had a wonderful Day just because.

#20

After spending the night with Lateefah scrapbooking I eventually woke up and began to function. I think she said it right!!! "We are getting Old". Staying up all night and functioning the next day is getting harder. Everything was fun. I don't feel like I produced the best pages ever but, I did produce some. I also purchased some cards for the rolodex swap. I can't wait to begin on that task of 11 cards about me! I don't know if I want to change them up or just make them all the same. I'm going pray!

I Miss Deon and I really think I'm worrying about him and our relationship because I miss him so much and I want to be with him. I know that long distance is tough but, I trusted that he was going to upwhole his end of the rope. I just pray that things are hashed out when I get to Los Angeles on the 23rd. I know that everything will work out the way it's supposed to when I get there. I wish things was a little different now but, In due time everything will be reveled. I just pray that carries me through like I know he his. Today I was thinking that sometimes... We go through some things to come out ahead. If we didn't go through anything how will we grow. I just know I must keep the Lord First in my life and everything will happen and I can see the light through the storm. I Love Deon so much but, I want things to be God's will not mine!!!

Angie

#19

This day I slept so long. It was well needed. I guess I needed the extra rest. My Mom was in a good mood today.

Teefah and I are true scrapbookers and shoppers. We need intervention. I'm on my way over her house and it's going to be so fun! I can't wait... The funny thing is that she will be over her tomorrow!!!

#18

Today, I was very sleepy. I went over Lateefah's and we had an agreement to scrap all night and we did just that. We stopped at 8:30am. I had a wonderful time. I scrapped a good 5 pages... from 12am to 8:30am.

Work was fine. I talked to Mark about his dad having his kidney removed and he said he recovered quickly. He's doing a lot better since the surgery. I know that my God is an awesome God and he's going to work everything out. Also, the Dr. didn't call my Mom back but, she called her main Dr and she called back and she explained that she's going to look into the matter and find out the needed information. She said she was going to email the current Dr. She also said that she was going to see if the current Dr. was interested in doing the proceedure and if not she would refer her to another dr at one of the other hospitals. My Mom also told the Dr. that she also keloid and she wanted to explain that too the surgeon so that he could help her in the healing process by not using staples and other particles that will cause more problems that nessecary.

I talked to Ne-Ne she was cool. I found out my grade which I wasn't pleased about. I have a C+

#17

Today is a good day... I think. I went to sleep very late after scrapping all night by myself.

#16

Today is a new day. I thank God for Mrs. Toy. She talked to me all night last night and we laughed and cried and had a good time. I thank God for her being in my life. Everyone needs that someone to help talk you through sometimes and really care about what's going on. One of her main points for the day was, "if you're a giver... you need to be with a giver". In relation to being in a relationship. You know I try my best not to be a mean person. I just want to be me and in doing that sometimes you find people that will use you and take your kindness and turn it into a weakness.

Today is a beautiful day and I can see the sun shining. I'm so thankful. I'm so Grateful.

I called Mrs. Moody (a lady at the Domingo's probation office)to gain a better understanding on what's going on with his probation and to see why and what types of limitations are holding him back from being in the service. I think the rules that hinder the personal development if the child/teen wants to do better and can. I don't know but, Domingo's charges are very bad and I think that he's going to have to prove himself worthy of many things and the ability not to try and out smart people to get ahead. I think it's a shame that he's chosen the hard road... but, it's his life and he has to live it.

#15

Good Morning... I spoke with Deon this morning. I was so happy.

Well, the results are in and my Mom has a cancerous kidney. I cried and I grieved. I was sad and I wanted to talk. I called Ta-Nisha, then my Dad, and then Selika again.

My Dad has to have eye surgery and it's out patient but, man. I just don't know!

Then, my sister's blood pressure is too high.

LORD, JUST DO YOUR WILL!

I went for a drive and I got some gas and I met Tee's little boy. Tattoo Tee! His little boy was not only cute but, he said, "Sometimes I'm just so Happy and I do this (he starts to smile and dance)". That just made my day. The little things.

I drove to Kinkos but, I just couldn't seem to get out of the car. So, I talked to Mrs. Toy all the way home and longer. And, I was ok. I was shaken up a bit but, I calmed down.

ShaRon came over and said the things that I do know about myself... I'm very very calm... people take that as a "I don't Care" I pray that Deon knows that I care about him and want to be with him. I just pray that he does. You know I do have to say that I did call Deon and I wanted to talk to him about everything but, I did not get any answer and I know he was awake and alert because when I was talking to his Mom he was in the background. He was fuctioning in the background. I didn't call his Mom too hear him nor to talk about him but, I did... I heard and I felt sick to my stomach! from disappointment.

#14

Oops I didn't blog on the 14th... I know I was thinking that I wanted to and should do it right now but, I walked out the door instead. Monday I went to EMU to turn in my papers for extra credit and a self evaluation. Everything was cool. I was going to do my laundry but, I didn't feel like it so eventually I packed up my things and went over Teefah's scrapped for a few then I came home. Nothing special.

#13

The Paper is over! I feel that we did a good job at completing it. I liked my partner Elizabeth Adams. She was very nice and fun. She kind of reminded me of Meredith Mason. Dr. Pokay's class was well worth it. I learned alot of things and I can't wait to see the results of the class.


I was sitting here at work I was thinking of the comment this lady I work with that goes like this, " Everyone Loves Angie". It's funny because everyone seems to like me. That doesn't seem to always be the best thing. I mean. I try to live my life in a way that is pleasing to God and I don't want anyone to dislike me but, I don't do anything extra to make anyone like me. I'm just me. I get mad just like everyone... I do dumb things just like everyone... and most importantly I have feelings just like everyone else. I pray that my husband sees these things as qualities and don't be so bad that that they just don't understand who I am. I know that God has someone for everyone and I just Thank God for his Grace and Mercy!

#12

Again, I wake up thinking about Deon. I feel in my Heart that it's over. I think that if I continue to hold on to everything I will be fooling myself. WE ARE JUST FRIENDS. Ask me does he know. I think he does but, he's never mentioned it too me. I feel that relationships are built on friendships and conversation and he's not doing that for me and I'm not doing that for him. We haven't talked in so long. I can attribute it to the distance because I understand it does put a strain on things. I've given him the account number and he can continue to pay his bill. I will turn my number off after my trip because I like the phone... And, I will talk to him when I talk to him. No, Love lost. He will forever be "My First Love".

Side note... After feeling really bad. I returned a phone call from my nephew and at the end he said,"Auntie, (then he paused...) I love you!" that really made my day. I cried when we hung up because I'm so sad. I know my PMS is on but, I feel so down. I feel like I wish I didn't love Deon because he just don't love me like I need to be loved.

Well, with the grace of God I know he helped me through. I feel 100% better. I pray that everything goes just fine on my vacation. I really Love Deon and I'm just going to continue to think good things and try to make the best of everything. I do promise to be fair to myself. I do want him to know that I do have feelings and I would like to talk with him alot more. He needs to know that communication is key and we are lacking and with out it it will kill our relationship. I need emotional support! I'm not getting it. I pray. I pray!

The pic I've taken today is of the hospital. I was getting off work and I thought it was the perfect timing to capture the beauty of the sky. Also, today I went to my LSS and made a purchase. I totally enjoyed it. Also, the ribbon that I ordered online came today! I was so excited!

#11

I'm up! I'm up! Getting ready to go to see my instructor and then meet with Elizabeth to write this stupid take home test. Yes! I woke this morning aggravated with Deon. I'm trying not to let it bother me but, I know what I know and feel like I feel! So. I'm going to have to deal with it until it's resolved. I've been to work... No call from Deon. I guess it's easy for me to begin doubt. I think it was so nice that we were in love. Or at least I was. I think he really likes me but, I think it's the distance. Right now that's the only thing that I can see. I don't know. I also feel like another factor will because our communication. If we can't communicate we are not going to have a realationship. We are not going to fit together if We don't know one another. Point Blank. I love what I know of him and the time I've spent with him but, I just can't be in a relationship by myself. Yeah, I've tried to shed a tear but, the truth I knew some let down would occur before I moved to L.A. But, the move was for and about me and the bonus was that he was there. The bonus is that he's there. I know I can't predict what's going to happen when I get to California for my trip but, I thing he's not going to have time for me and I'm going to be hurt. I'm going to express my feeling and go on like a big girl! That's what I'm feeling today.

#10

The Detroit Airport is so backed up... Lateefah is on her way to Los Angeles and she was supposed to leave an hour ago. She was explaining to me that people with carryons had to dump everything liquid... hair gel, hair spray, toothpaste, shampoo... you know what I mean. She said that no American Flights are taking off on time and every one must be patted down before getting on the plane and if you have to change planes the process starts over. Better safe than sorry. She was explaining that the only planes that are taken off are the FedEx planes. It's so sad that everywhere is so going through so much attack. I pray for peace today. The world is so tainted with bad people.

This morning I got up at 5:30 am to complete my assignment. I thank God that I've completed it to the best of my ablity. I do think I should start taking more time to accomplish my educational goals. I like school I kind of wish I was done. But, in due time. Deon always say it will be greater later.

Well, today My Mom got the call about Cyst near her kidneys. I pray that everything works out fine. I'm not scared but, I know she is. I can hear it in her voice. Selika, is like everything is going to be ok. I know she's scared too but, she's fronting with this one... I know because she's really scary. My feelings are: I'm scared and I understanding. My thoughts have been alot like my mom's since Barbara died. Thinking about death... I know it's going to happen but, I'm just a little nervous. But, I know God's Got everything undercontrol.

Finally, called Deon. Haven't talked to him in awhile. I thought tonight would be a good time to talk and tell someone about my Mom also. The feeling that I got was not cool. I said "Hello" How are you and he was like Cool... I said are you sleeping he said "NO but a N**Ga is sleepy" Call a N**ga Back in the morning" and then the phone started acting up and it hung up when I was like I wanted to talk to you about something... So I never got to say what I wanted to say.

#9

It's 1 o'clock in the morning and I'm still procrastinating. I can't see to complete this paper. I have some type of block. I need to get over it. I know what to do. I'm just not confident. I need prayer.

Good Friend Nikki emailed me today. I asked her did she recieve the card I mailed her. I just wanted her to know I was thinking of her. Teefah called and said she was getting her hair done and she's going to stop by. That's cool cause I haven't seen her in a minute and it will be cool to have someone to talk to while I'm writing the rest of my paper. I haven't talked to anyone else except my parents today.

#8

Ok This morning was the worst. I have never overslept for a class. I did not hear the alarm go off any and I will not let the devil win. I just got up and pressed on towards class. I had a good time and I explained to Dr. Pokay that I over slept. I also had a long conversation with myself about the fact that I need to change somethings if I'm going to complete this semester and the other one that I have to complete. I feel that I need to begin using all of my resources and not just slide by. I feel that it's time for me to COMMUNICATE better. I know its ok to get help but, something in me says I can do everything and I'm just being lazy. I feel that if I assert myself and do the task I'll be ok. But, sometimes I just have simple questions and if stifes my goal. I can do all things through Christ so I better lean on him and get things done.

Today was a good day over all. I miss my boyfriend so much. I just hope and pray that he knows it. August 23 will be here before I know it and I can't wait to touch his face and play with De'Tahj. It's going to be so fun and rewarding. I can't wait until I get there so I can weight out my options for a job and housing. Thank God for Jesus and Grace and Mercy.

Right now I'm in the library at EMU even though I thought I had to go to work. I mean I actually drove to work and looked on the schedule and saw that my name was not there to do work so I left. I never put my book down. I just said by to the people that seen me and walked out the door. I wasn't mad I was actually happy because that freed up some time for me to finish writing this Article Review. I Thank God for that!

Well, I'm going to add the pic I took today. Its another flower. Well, EMU has this small bush of flowers and they look so pretty. I've been compelled to take a picture of them.

#7

Monday... Last night I really kicked it into high gear to complete my work. It was interesting. I do believe that I second guessed myself but, I'm going to ask for help from my instructor tomorrow. The Brighten Campus of EMU is giving money to those in need and has blessed me Totally! Honey I am so thankful. I talked to the lady today. This photo is from the Bruce Halle Library entrance. I thought it was the cutest little flower... and the fact that the picture came out so nice I had to post it.

#6

Today!

Was a another good day. Last night the Devil tried to be on attack but he gets none. I had a few words with Mary about the relationship she has with my Mom. I told her to "Leave her Alone". If she's causing you so much pain and stress... Just leave her alone! I hope she's gotten the message and she come off the hurt and pain she feels and move on with her life. I think she's more than able to take care of her self and that if friends or anyone hurt her feelings then just maybe she need to find her another set of friends.

Today, I also had a few words with Boyce about Faith and God... The main topic my Mom told me not to debate. I'm going to learn!!! It was in good faith and fun but, we have totally different believes... And, that's why were just friends.

I'm at work thinking about doing my homework. I know I can do it I think I just trip out for no reason and that's why I'm going to get in trouble. I'm praying that I don't. I also need to clean my house. I can't stand feeling like I'm not clean enough. I don't know why I'm like that but, I can't stand a dirty house. I guess that goes back to the Lord can not dwell in a dirty house.... CLEAN UP!!!

I miss my man so much. I can't wait until it's time to see him at the end of this month. I hope and pray that everything goes fun and well. He's my BABY! I love him so much.

#5

Goodmorning at 9am. I'm getting ready to go to the Library or work to complete some homework. I really need to nix this in the bud.

Today is a good day. I enjoyed work and working on my paper. It was a lot smoother than I thought. This picture of Alan was taken in the halls of University of Michigan. Alan is a good friend of mine. He has been very nice. I appreciate his company and laughs when ever we work together. Homework is still an exsiting factor. URG!!

#4

Today, Shai came over and brought me a very nice card. The words are beautiful. She also gave me a gift card to Panera Bread. I like them. I talked to my Mom a lot today. She's still grieving Which is still to be expected. I talked to my SIster. She is so funny. We laughed our little hearts out. Mingo got a cell phone! I'm so happy but, I think he's happier. I love my Family. Lori and I went to Ruby Tuesdays. That was very nice. I enjoyed it so much. She and I talked laughed and just enjoyed each others company. From there I went to JoAnn's and got somethings for some layouts I must do. I want to blow up Shiela's neice picture because she's so cute. I think I have a nice layout but, I want the pic to be a little bit larger. I wish my Printer was working. I think it's a shame that it has died. But, that's neither here nor there. Work was work. I had a lot of film but, it was done. Over all the day was very nice and fun.

#3

My mom's bestfriend died today. She cried, She kicked, and grieved. It was sad. I wish things could be better. I wish I could have huged her one more time. I will always remember her as long as I live. This flower in my blog represents the love and friendship and kindness that friends share with one another. I love Barbara Spires she's with Lord now.

Today was a different day. I woke up late and I had a good time at class. I have a headache but, things will get better. I'm due to go to the library in a little while so I'm praying that everything will get greater later.

#2

Day two... I slept very well. I got up and began to put things away so I can be a productive student. I talked to Teefah and My Mom. I'm still very excited in getting the Acura TL. I do know that I need to make more money. I will be praying. I have to get somethings together to make sure I have the finances to do everything I need to do now. I need to pay off some of my bills. I can't wait. I have to come up with a plan very soon.

I've talked to my mom all day. She's funny and she always tell me cool things that happened when she was a young girl. I love it. Today we talked about her brother that lives in Buffalo, NY. I would like to meet him. She was telling me that she didn't know him and haven't seen him since he was a little baby. I was like that had to be over 45 close to 50 years ago because it was went she was visiting Granddad Willie James Stuart Snowden in Alabama. I would like to talk or meet him one day. She also was telling me about Grandma's brothers and sisters. The order of them goes... Uncle Joe Uncle Paul, Uncle David, Grandma (Farris), Aunt Ann and Uncle Clint. I wanted to know about the pictures and everything that would show me who these people are. She told me that the pictures burned in the house but, before then everyone moved to California like a year before. My Mom always had the best stories. I wish I can type all of the stories... Maybe I will try little by little.

ShaRon came over here and I enjoyed her company. We had a photo shoot. It was very fun. ( As usaual). Yesterday her boyfriend said he loves her. I think it's so sweet. I feel that she deserves to find true love and beautiful happiness. This person loves her for who and how she is. He gets my respect just because of it.

My day was very nice! Thank You Jesus for a good one!

TODAY IS MY 31ST BIRTHDAY!

Today is my Birthday! It began with me talking to ShaRon... We talked about everything for about 3 hours and 15 minutes. She sang to me ... Happy Birthday. I was very very nice. Selika called me at 12:10am saying "Happy Birthday Boy". I ordered some ribbon from this online company called LinneCards. Everything was really cheap one dollar. I couldn't bet that. I went to sleep around 2 am online to wake up with a sore throat and just not feeling good. I laid in bed then my Baby called me around 8:30 saying "Happy Happy Birthday" It was very sweet. He's very sweet. I told him I wasn't feeling good and he said the same thing... His stomach was hurting and he was feeling a bit better but, he was getting ready for work. I laid in the bed and thought to watch ATL... It was good I'm happy I bought it. I love skating movies. It takes me back to my old days. Then, because I had a hair appointment I got dressed called ShaRon and she talked with me all the way to the hair shop. I didn't feel good but, I pressed. My hair was done nicely. I came back home to snack on some popcorn and cookies and finish making the enchilada's I pray they come out good. Off to work I go...